You like the players, I like the game.

Hey hey, you you.

My personal blog seems so dead. Hahahhaaha. Well, I do have something I want to say aka rant about so YAY. Here goes nothing.

I love Saturdays, I really do. One of the main reasons for this is because I get to play my favorite sport, Captainball. If you don't know what that is, you may go Google it and learn something new today. No, it is not a girly sport, the guys who play this game will kick your ass if you say that. Hah!
Anyways, something bothered me on the field today, hence this post. Please take note, no names will be mentioned but if you can guess them, then good for you. If not, don't come asking me either. I just need to vent some of my frustration through something I know best; writing. 

I don't know how it is to other people, but to me, if we're playing a game or a sport, it takes teamwork. (Unless its an individual sport, it doesn't count.) And in a team, every single one of your team mate is your friend. They're on your side, for god's sake. So there's no "best friend" on a team. You don't favor someone against the others. You don't constantly give that someone the ball even though they're being so tightly guarded and your other teammates are open as the sky. That, is not what teamwork is about.

Also, when someone makes a mistake, for instance; your teammate overshot and threw the ball further than expected, As if you mocking her/his mistake isn't enough but when your "best friend" on the field does it, you just keep quiet or laugh, brushing it off. The double standards really shows what kind of sportsmanship you display. Even as a friend, who does that?

If you're going to defend this person saying maybe the "best friend" he/she was favoring, is a superb player, sorry to disappoint but no. Anyone can shoot, throw and catch a ball. But really proves that you're a good player is when you go all out with enthusiasm, determination & consistency.

Okay I think I'm done. I don't see the point of writing an extremely long post for some idiot. And I can't be bothered to use really fancy English words, in case you were wondering.

Bye now.

With love, k

Things we should understand, in Disney movies now, that we were too young to understand then.

1. PETER PAN 
Taught us to let go of our pasts and the familiar we’ve lived to know. It taught us the gain in growing up and growing vulnerable. There’s beauty in the future as long as we keep the beauty of our past.

2. LION KING 
Reminded us of the disappointment that comes from the battle against fate. You can’t change who you are, so be the best you can be. Be brave, be prepared, be strong enough to face the life you’ve been given.

3. BAMBI 
Told us that life is love, loss, and a world that keeps turning, even in our darkest times. We’re not exceptions; we’re together in life, standing on a thin piece of ice, but like Bambi’s wobbly legs can stand, so can you. Just as the seasons promise, a new spring will come.

4. TOY STORY 
There’s a power in numbers we hate to accept. We’re stubborn and close-minded and proud to be alone. But, one day someone will enter your life and when they help you carry your baggage, you’ll never realize how heavy it was until they put it down. Find the strength you’ve always needed in someone else and you’ll never again feel weak.

5. ALICE IN WONDERLAND 
We are who we believe we are and we are what we think we’re capable of. Embrace your flaws, your madness, your confusion. Hold an opinion and hold your own for we live in a world aching to change us. Embrace who you are, not who you will one day be. Life is a single step. Get lost, fall down, be late. Stop running.

You have to live and happily ever after will follow

With love, k

Friendship is timeless

For my best friend, Grachel Kim,

Friendship is timeless. It’s partying into the morning, it’s talking into the night. It’s looking back thinking, “why did we do that?”. But never once saying, “I wish we didn’t.”

Friendship is never saying goodbye. It's conversations left open, no punctuation, no distance, no barriers between us.

Friendship is growth. Growing old. Growing wise. I’ll hold your hair when you’re drunk and feeling sick. I’ll hold you when you’re crying over him. I’ll hold your bouquet before you walk down the isle, and I’ll hold your child when they’re rested in my arms. I’ll hold our memories so close to my heart and I’ll hold onto the thought that you’re never too far.

I miss you & I love you as always.

With love, k

My definition of love.

This is so cool dammit.

So hello there. I know I haven't been filling my personal blog lately because its either I have too much things to talk about or I just have nothing to say. My life in 20015 started out great and something happened just recently so I'll touch on that in this post.

Love is "Drive safely". 

Love is "Tell me when you get home safe". 

Love is respecting each other by saying please and thank you. 

Love is opening the door for her. 

Love is understanding each other. 

Love is holding each others' hands when you're out for a walk. 

Love is being there for one another.

Love is telling her how beautiful she is when she's at her worst.

Love is telling him how brave he is when he has to face his fears.

I've realized that many people don't have long lasting relationships because they don't "work out" (That's what they call it nowadays). We'll see it all on Twitter and Instagram with really sweet and beautiful couple pictures that just makes you go "Awww, I want a relationship like that." Then we all make it our "#relationshipgoals". Well guess what people? That picture does not show their relationship's journey.

We see pictures like that and so when we actually get into it, we would expect the same. Now, that's where you are oh-so-wrong. You realized that when you get into a relationship, it's not all sweet and happy, where you two hold hands and skip around the grassy meadow filled with butterflies. No. To get to that grassy meadow, you gotta go through shit first because that's how it is. Don't just get into a relationship and expect to be happy right away. That's not how it works. If you want to get into a relationship just so you can post happy couple pictures then you have some serious thinking to do and mature up.

If you wanna get into a relationship, first, you gotta be ready to commit because it ain't all about you anymore. You're sharing your life with someone else. You have to be ready for heartbreaks, getting angry, arguments, crying and whatever else that goes on in relationships. I'm not trying to scare you and tell you not to get into relationships. It's just part of getting into one. It is how it is, one big huge package of Korean drama with a pinch of Chinese drama and a teaspoon of English dramas.

So yeah, try sweeping all your problems under the carpet just so you can avoid arguing and "be happy". At some point in your relationship, believe me when I tell you this, you'll be so sick of pretending to be happy. Your problems won't fit under the carpet no more and either one of you are going to burst.

You can say I'm really old -fashioned but when I get into relationships it's because I think that person has the potential to be my spouse and so I try my best with my partner to work towards that "goal". No, I'm thinking far ahead, I'm just working our relationship towards something. But if you know that you're gonna break up with that person anyway, seriously, why bother getting into a relationship in the first place? You're gonna waste your time,effort, money blah blah. Also, if you realize that you can no longer be happy with your partner, call the relationship off. No point dragging it because you're afraid to hurt him/her. Dragging the relationship is just going to make things worst and more painful, so do you and your partner a favor and just leave. It's all for the better but of course, give it another chance before you decide that. 

What I'm basically trying to say is that, if you're going to get into a relationship and want to be happy.You have to work for it. It's like how when you do a sport and you want to earn a skill, you have to do shit loads of strength work and fixing your technique to achieve that skill. It's a painful journey but most of the time it's worth it. Relationships aren't scary like what normally people would think. It's "scary" because they're afraid of hurting people and getting hurt themselves. Let me tell you that, "hurt" is inevitable, unavoidable or any other synonym that relates which is why usually many partners cannot confront each other which is very bad. It's part of being in a relationship, you take it or you leave it. *shrugs* I wouldn't say relationships are a burden, I think it has changed me for the better and I've learnt a lot through experience. And nope, I do not regret anything.

Also, before you get into a relationship, the attraction and feelings for each other has to be mutual. Too much or too little feelings is bad. And when I say attraction, I mean as in physical and mentally attracted to that person. If you're only attracted to them on one aspect, for example, physical it wouldn't last very long. Last year, I was mentally attracted to this guy; he was smart, unpredictable and exciting. Being really attracted to him, mentally, made me overlook his physical flaws. So trust me when I say, being in love can really make you blind. 

There's always pros and cons for everything, it's just which side are you going to fight for with your heart? And one more very important thing, if you cannot be happy on your own, don't expect relationships to make you happy. No one is in charge of your own happiness except you. So if you cannot be happy on your own, don't you dare get into a relationship because it'll end up becoming a huge ass mess. I know right, why the hell are you taking advice from a 19 year old girl? What does she know about love? Haha. It's true, love is a huge word, it can mean anything to anyone but I'm just sharing this from experience. Accept love and share the love. Love makes us human So make love, not war. ;)

yours truly, k