You like the players, I like the game.

Hey hey, you you.

My personal blog seems so dead. Hahahhaaha. Well, I do have something I want to say aka rant about so YAY. Here goes nothing.

I love Saturdays, I really do. One of the main reasons for this is because I get to play my favorite sport, Captainball. If you don't know what that is, you may go Google it and learn something new today. No, it is not a girly sport, the guys who play this game will kick your ass if you say that. Hah!
Anyways, something bothered me on the field today, hence this post. Please take note, no names will be mentioned but if you can guess them, then good for you. If not, don't come asking me either. I just need to vent some of my frustration through something I know best; writing. 

I don't know how it is to other people, but to me, if we're playing a game or a sport, it takes teamwork. (Unless its an individual sport, it doesn't count.) And in a team, every single one of your team mate is your friend. They're on your side, for god's sake. So there's no "best friend" on a team. You don't favor someone against the others. You don't constantly give that someone the ball even though they're being so tightly guarded and your other teammates are open as the sky. That, is not what teamwork is about.

Also, when someone makes a mistake, for instance; your teammate overshot and threw the ball further than expected, As if you mocking her/his mistake isn't enough but when your "best friend" on the field does it, you just keep quiet or laugh, brushing it off. The double standards really shows what kind of sportsmanship you display. Even as a friend, who does that?

If you're going to defend this person saying maybe the "best friend" he/she was favoring, is a superb player, sorry to disappoint but no. Anyone can shoot, throw and catch a ball. But really proves that you're a good player is when you go all out with enthusiasm, determination & consistency.

Okay I think I'm done. I don't see the point of writing an extremely long post for some idiot. And I can't be bothered to use really fancy English words, in case you were wondering.

Bye now.

With love, k

Things we should understand, in Disney movies now, that we were too young to understand then.

1. PETER PAN 
Taught us to let go of our pasts and the familiar we’ve lived to know. It taught us the gain in growing up and growing vulnerable. There’s beauty in the future as long as we keep the beauty of our past.

2. LION KING 
Reminded us of the disappointment that comes from the battle against fate. You can’t change who you are, so be the best you can be. Be brave, be prepared, be strong enough to face the life you’ve been given.

3. BAMBI 
Told us that life is love, loss, and a world that keeps turning, even in our darkest times. We’re not exceptions; we’re together in life, standing on a thin piece of ice, but like Bambi’s wobbly legs can stand, so can you. Just as the seasons promise, a new spring will come.

4. TOY STORY 
There’s a power in numbers we hate to accept. We’re stubborn and close-minded and proud to be alone. But, one day someone will enter your life and when they help you carry your baggage, you’ll never realize how heavy it was until they put it down. Find the strength you’ve always needed in someone else and you’ll never again feel weak.

5. ALICE IN WONDERLAND 
We are who we believe we are and we are what we think we’re capable of. Embrace your flaws, your madness, your confusion. Hold an opinion and hold your own for we live in a world aching to change us. Embrace who you are, not who you will one day be. Life is a single step. Get lost, fall down, be late. Stop running.

You have to live and happily ever after will follow

With love, k

Friendship is timeless

For my best friend, Grachel Kim,

Friendship is timeless. It’s partying into the morning, it’s talking into the night. It’s looking back thinking, “why did we do that?”. But never once saying, “I wish we didn’t.”

Friendship is never saying goodbye. It's conversations left open, no punctuation, no distance, no barriers between us.

Friendship is growth. Growing old. Growing wise. I’ll hold your hair when you’re drunk and feeling sick. I’ll hold you when you’re crying over him. I’ll hold your bouquet before you walk down the isle, and I’ll hold your child when they’re rested in my arms. I’ll hold our memories so close to my heart and I’ll hold onto the thought that you’re never too far.

I miss you & I love you as always.

With love, k

My definition of love.

This is so cool dammit.

So hello there. I know I haven't been filling my personal blog lately because its either I have too much things to talk about or I just have nothing to say. My life in 20015 started out great and something happened just recently so I'll touch on that in this post.

Love is "Drive safely". 

Love is "Tell me when you get home safe". 

Love is respecting each other by saying please and thank you. 

Love is opening the door for her. 

Love is understanding each other. 

Love is holding each others' hands when you're out for a walk. 

Love is being there for one another.

Love is telling her how beautiful she is when she's at her worst.

Love is telling him how brave he is when he has to face his fears.

I've realized that many people don't have long lasting relationships because they don't "work out" (That's what they call it nowadays). We'll see it all on Twitter and Instagram with really sweet and beautiful couple pictures that just makes you go "Awww, I want a relationship like that." Then we all make it our "#relationshipgoals". Well guess what people? That picture does not show their relationship's journey.

We see pictures like that and so when we actually get into it, we would expect the same. Now, that's where you are oh-so-wrong. You realized that when you get into a relationship, it's not all sweet and happy, where you two hold hands and skip around the grassy meadow filled with butterflies. No. To get to that grassy meadow, you gotta go through shit first because that's how it is. Don't just get into a relationship and expect to be happy right away. That's not how it works. If you want to get into a relationship just so you can post happy couple pictures then you have some serious thinking to do and mature up.

If you wanna get into a relationship, first, you gotta be ready to commit because it ain't all about you anymore. You're sharing your life with someone else. You have to be ready for heartbreaks, getting angry, arguments, crying and whatever else that goes on in relationships. I'm not trying to scare you and tell you not to get into relationships. It's just part of getting into one. It is how it is, one big huge package of Korean drama with a pinch of Chinese drama and a teaspoon of English dramas.

So yeah, try sweeping all your problems under the carpet just so you can avoid arguing and "be happy". At some point in your relationship, believe me when I tell you this, you'll be so sick of pretending to be happy. Your problems won't fit under the carpet no more and either one of you are going to burst.

You can say I'm really old -fashioned but when I get into relationships it's because I think that person has the potential to be my spouse and so I try my best with my partner to work towards that "goal". No, I'm thinking far ahead, I'm just working our relationship towards something. But if you know that you're gonna break up with that person anyway, seriously, why bother getting into a relationship in the first place? You're gonna waste your time,effort, money blah blah. Also, if you realize that you can no longer be happy with your partner, call the relationship off. No point dragging it because you're afraid to hurt him/her. Dragging the relationship is just going to make things worst and more painful, so do you and your partner a favor and just leave. It's all for the better but of course, give it another chance before you decide that. 

What I'm basically trying to say is that, if you're going to get into a relationship and want to be happy.You have to work for it. It's like how when you do a sport and you want to earn a skill, you have to do shit loads of strength work and fixing your technique to achieve that skill. It's a painful journey but most of the time it's worth it. Relationships aren't scary like what normally people would think. It's "scary" because they're afraid of hurting people and getting hurt themselves. Let me tell you that, "hurt" is inevitable, unavoidable or any other synonym that relates which is why usually many partners cannot confront each other which is very bad. It's part of being in a relationship, you take it or you leave it. *shrugs* I wouldn't say relationships are a burden, I think it has changed me for the better and I've learnt a lot through experience. And nope, I do not regret anything.

Also, before you get into a relationship, the attraction and feelings for each other has to be mutual. Too much or too little feelings is bad. And when I say attraction, I mean as in physical and mentally attracted to that person. If you're only attracted to them on one aspect, for example, physical it wouldn't last very long. Last year, I was mentally attracted to this guy; he was smart, unpredictable and exciting. Being really attracted to him, mentally, made me overlook his physical flaws. So trust me when I say, being in love can really make you blind. 

There's always pros and cons for everything, it's just which side are you going to fight for with your heart? And one more very important thing, if you cannot be happy on your own, don't expect relationships to make you happy. No one is in charge of your own happiness except you. So if you cannot be happy on your own, don't you dare get into a relationship because it'll end up becoming a huge ass mess. I know right, why the hell are you taking advice from a 19 year old girl? What does she know about love? Haha. It's true, love is a huge word, it can mean anything to anyone but I'm just sharing this from experience. Accept love and share the love. Love makes us human So make love, not war. ;)

yours truly, k

Book 2014; Page 365 of 365

So are you ready to say goodbye to 2014? Even if you're not, brace yourself because it'll be leaving anyways. 

I can't wait for 2015. Who doesn't like to start fresh? Everything that happened here in 2014, I'll gladly be leaving it behind for new things in 2015. It's already 31st of December 2014. What have I been doing for the whole 2014? It's like everything just went by in a snap. For me 2014, was not that great or not that bad but of course I have made great memories with great people and there are moments that I will never forget. Just wanna thank those who made my year so memorable! Thank you all! Love you to bits as always. <3

It's officially a New Year when the clock strikes 12am tonight, a whole new year to go through again. New moments, new experiences, new memories. Every year, people say "It's a new year, a new me" or people talk about change in their life, changes in them etc and other people say "Why not change now? Why must you wait for 2014" and things like that. Well, to me, it's like there will be a starting point for you. Yeah it's true that you don't need to wait for a new year to begin again but it's entirely up to you on how you wanna see it. Any day and anytime can always be a new beginning, it's whether you're willing to start a new beginning for yourself. I have plans that I've made for the year 2015 and I can always start now instead of waiting but I choose the beginning of 2015 as my starting point so I can have time to prepare for it. This is how it works for me but really, it's up to you. Everyday, every minute, every moment is always available for a new beginning, remember that. You just need to make your first move and one thing will lead to another.

Hopefully, 2015 will be a good year but what's life without up's and down's right? It would be extremely boring. It's like a rollercoaster going straight all the time, that kinda ride sucks. You can hope that every year is a good year but there will always be something that will pull you down for sure, so don't hope to be happy throughout the 365days of 2015. Plus that's really creepy. It's just so wrong to be happy all the time, 24/7. Just isn't natural. Anyway, I have no idea what I'm expecting for the coming year. I seriously have no idea at all, I'll have a lot of things going on though but I hope for the best. If things happen, it happens. I'm just gonna go along with it like how I did for all my years. Just make the best out of everything and try your best not to take things or people for granted because that's what 2014 has taught me and I wanna apply this lesson to my new year. All of you should too! Try to put on a positive mindset, it really helps you to be a better person as it has already done for me but of course, always try to be better than who you already are. It's a new year and a fresh start so just plan things out and write your resolutions maybe for motivation and inspiration.

I know it's not 12AM yet but HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! I wish you all all the best for 2015 (: Can't wait to party tonightttt!

yours truly, k

Gone Girl; A Film Review

Gone Girl is the basic definition of, Don't judge a book by its cover. It was a movie filled with twists and turns I never saw coming. Even though the movie brought you on a gripping ride, it wasn't a strong film. As this was an adaptation of a book, director David Fincher and screenwriter Gillian Flynn (also the author of the book) follow the novel’s plot line pretty closely, but the adaptation to film brings a few surprises. Bear in mind, I have yet to read the book. I've only read the summary of it. 

The story is one of marriage, economy, troubled childhood, weakness, psychopathology, and pure evil. Evil wins, hands down. Those who rave about the film seem to miss that point completely. Why is that?

A wife disappears on the morning of the couple's fifth anniversary. The husband is a slacker, the obvious suspect. The marriage was stressed. The wife was the subject of her wealthy parents' children's books based on her falsified childhood. Loss of jobs, bad economy and deteriorating health of his parents leads them to move to husband's home town in Missouri which the wife loathes. Her disappearance becomes a media sensation and the husband is convicted by press.

But in fact, the wife had for many months planned her own "murder "in order to frame her husband. She is a psychopath of the worst, most seriously disturbed kind. The truth of this gradually unfolds to the husband and to the reader/viewer.

The wife's plan to actually kill herself is altered along the way. When she sees her husband lie so effectively and so glibly on television begging for her return, she is excited. She wants him back. She brutally kills a rescuer/benefactor, Neil Patrick Harris, completely miscast in the film. She returns home, blood-soaked, to her media-surrounded home. All those who had pronounced the husband guilty are shocked.

Her parents are relieved and grateful. But now the reader/viewer knows that she is a monster of proportions; a woman so damaged and disturbed that no one in her sphere could ever have a normal life. The husband tries to tell police she is a murderer; they say they have no proof she was not a victim of the "kidnapper" she killed.

And here is where it all goes so wrong. The wife tells the husband she is pregnant so he decides to stay with her. He tells his twin sister who is his rock and best friend that he cannot let her have his baby and raise it without him. The End!

While the husband is weak and unmotivated to achieve, and an adulterer, he is not a narcissist, not a psychopath. Wife clearly presents as both deadly narcissist and psychopath. No remotely sane person would agree to stay with a person so obviously insane, let alone to bring a child into the world to raise with that person. The ending is the most unsatisfying of any book or film in my experience. It is also unbelievable. Normal people, people within the huge range of normal, do not choose to live in a nightmare or to subject children to said nightmare. The ending obliterates all the good writing that came before.

This film, so astonishingly good until the end, is a toxic addition to our contaminated culture.

As for the acting, Rosamund Pike turns in a superb performance as Amy Dunne. Pike far outshone Affleck in this movie. She was the perfect “Amy" which I thought would be the harder character to pull off.  But Ben Affleck’s performance as Nick seemed flat to me, lacking the emotional dimension needed for a character under such an immense amount of stress.The one thing Affleck had going for him was the idea that Nick was a regular shlubb with a pretty face. Affleck has a limited acting range, but I do appreciate his work behind the camera. He is after all a director and actor with an Academy Award. This was just one aspect of the film that prevented me from fully entering into Flynn’s otherwise intriguing action mystery. A marginal script and numerous flaws in terms of realism were other features that pulled me out of Flynn’s world. One of the most distracting moments was the soundtrack by Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross. In many scenes, the music was jarringly mood inappropriate. When they’re doing their job well, you don’t consciously notice them. It’s only when they fail somehow that their work intrudes on the viewer’s experience. For me, the Reznor-Ross Gone Girl soundtrack was definitely intrusive.

I found the twisted nature of their relationship and its improbability a puzzle to figure out. Can they really be the “perfect match” for one another? Could they come back together after all they put one another through?
It was fantastically spun plot with a disastrous ending.

PS: Special thanks to Nuffnang for the tickets! And thanks to WayShen for the great catch-up. :)
Was also lucky enough to bump into Dennis Yin. *mini starstruck moment*

Till next time..

Yours truly,

K

Big Bad Wolf book sale

Are you a book fanatic like me? Then I'm 100% sure you've heard of this book wonderland. 

Held annually, this is the biggest book sale ever to be organized by Bookxcess, a bookshop in Amcorp Mall (which was the first venue of Big Bad Wolf in history! I was there. ;) ) This year, the sale started on the 5th of December @ MIECC, The Mines, but some people got preview passes so they got dibs on the best books ahead of everyone else. There's every type of book that you can conceive of; from reference books on design/architecture to history books and every type of fictional and non-fictional novels. I went there on the today, 7th and I bought 5 Hardcovers, 4 paperbacks for a cheapass total of RM61! For normal book prices, a RM61 can get you a max of only 2 paperbacks. Tsktsk. Smh. 

My haul of the day. (Bottom 5 are hardcovers, top 4 paperbacks)

So I spent a total of, 3 hours checking out books and it is tiring. But never fear, there are loads of awesome food, one floor above!

 

I had a frozen yogurt ice cream at this stall for RM3. Totally mouth-watering. 

There's also mini carnival and a carousel for kids!

Was going up the escalator when I notice the guy in front of me, had a tail. Wolf in disguise? Haha.

Upon payment for books, you'll be given a super cool looking bookmark!

After the checkouts, a small bazaar is held outside for various posters and other stuff (stationary, badges etc)

Few eye catching posters. (Okay? Okay.)

One of my absolute favorites. 

If you spend above RM100, don't forget to collect a RM5 discount voucher from the Digi counter outside. You have to provide a Digi number before collecting. :)

Overall, it was awesome. The books will be able to occupy my time for awhile. Wiah I could go back for a second of third round but sadly, I don't have the time as I am traveling soon. If you're interested in getting books from the sale don't fret! It's still on until the 16th of December 2014. And it's open 24 hours! For more details check out the Big Bad Wolf website and facebook page:

http://bigbadwolfbooks.com/
https://www.facebook.com/bbwbooks

Till next time..

Yours truly, 

K